Fourteen Months

HI Love,

Fourteen months ago we said our goodbyes. Fourteen months of not having you next to me at night. Fourteen months of you not sitting in your spot in the car. Fourteen months of you not rolling in the grass on our walks.

Will this ever get easier? I know you’re having fun up in Dog Heaven, but you ever think of me? Do you think about our times together? How you would wake me so gently in the middle of the night when you had to go potty?

Did I tell you the downstairs where we spent our last few months together is now completely transformed into my studio? I don’t know if it’s good or not that I don’t think of you every time I’m in the space. We moved your bed upstairs and Lili now lays on it. It’s bittersweet to see her there, missing you, but happy to see her using it.

It’s fall here. The leaves are starting to turn colors and I think of you and Lili on your sniffy walks. While you enjoyed a good sniff, you would get bored with Lili taking her sweet time and you’d want her to hurry things up. I never did get the perfect fall photo of you. Sometimes I put things off for too long and the chance to make those memories pass me. I’m trying not to do that with Lili. I have to remind myself that she is still here with us. I started taking her on walks to new parks on Tuesdays when we can, so I don’t miss the opportunity to make those memories with her. She is limping more these days, I’m hoping she can still stay with us for a few more years.

I love you,,

Woman